The world will tell you who you are until you tell the world.

Today, I hung out with Ellen. I have missed her, a lot. Shes such a good friend that it pains me that me & her didn't hang out that much in middle school. Maybe, just maybe if i was with her more, i would of saved myself from any pain, or atleast some of it. :( Right now, My brother & his girlfriend are over, i should probbaly go help with dinner, but whatever. I might ... I'm getting the cold sholder from My brothers girlfriend, again. I don't know what i do but i'm just guessing, just hearing my voice is enough to tick her off.... I'm going to mystery trip again, i wasn't sure if i wanted to go again, but i'll be away from the people i love the most, but the people i tend to hurt the most as well, so some time away might be good for me so i can realize that their what matters, & because its church, it might make my attitude & this hurt weaken. to change and to change for the better are two different things. but whatever, my friends have noticed that my happiness or the cheery in my voice goes away faster than before, or lately but, just because i try not to talk about it does not mean that i am over it, that i feel better, or that i am ever going to be okay. i just don't want to be a burden. but some people just don't seem to understand that... But i'm through writing.. Bye
-clarissa
People are like crayons. it's not the color they are, it's the picture they make.